I am 47 years old originally from Grimsby, Ontario Canada. On November 12, 2019 I left St Johns Newfoundland on a 3 year+, 50,000 km bike ride across Canada, and then south through 23 more countries to the bottom of Argentina. The following is a collection of some of pieces I have written along my journey
No where to be
Listening to all the birds
Must have heard over a dozen types
Just lying in my tent
No where to be
Listening to the breeze play through the trees
Just lying in my tent
No where to be
Watching bugs land on my tent
Just lying in my tent
No where to be
Soaking in creation and thanking God
Just lying in my tent
No where to be
Just watching the sunshine filter through the leaves
Just lying in my tent
No where to be
Just being lazy
Written May 26, 2020
How much strength must I have
Sure you have strength to move mountains
Have you the strength to be me
My self hatred of the boy inside me
He dare not show his face for shame
Hidden in the shadows for all to see
The voices of my accusers
Twisting my desires
The voices inside my head
No matter how valiantly you fight
No matter what the sacrifice
You would not sacrifice
How much have these agreements costed my heart
The agreements that I have been making with my enemies
Giving him places in both my heart and life
The screaming inside my head
The accusing tone from his lips
The shatter of my heart
How much strength must I have!
Written October 10, 2019
You were asleep in those moments
You didn’t know I was watching
You were oblivious in those moments
I remember those moments
Those were important to me
You didn’t know
I would watch you through the darkness
I would hear you breath
I grasped those moments
I prayed for those moments
I thanked God for those moments
I cried for those moments
The small moments were my big moments
I never forgot the moments
I fought for the moments
I would kill for those moments
I would die to get those moments back
Written January 25, 2020
Awareness of my brokenness
The feeling of emptiness that never goes away
The heavy breathing of my emotions
Awareness of my emptiness
The feeling of loneliness that never goes away
Where did all these people come from
So many people, so much more aware of being alone
Suffocating in front of their eyes
Suffocating with my eyes wide open
How broken am I
My brokenness insists on reminding me
My brokenness never wants to leave me
Written Christmas Eve 2019
